sweeter the second time around :)

perhaps some people have been so surprised with the sudden dose of positivity from me just recently (well technically for the past month already).

if you know me well, probably you witnessed my fair share of depression during the first 5 months of this year: through my previous blogs, facebook status, plurks, the songs i play, and many more. even through my text messages.

well, just last month, i finally decided to screw it with the heartaches, occasional sighs of disappointment and all that hullabaloos of depression. i finally decided to let it all go and look at the brighter side of things.

i woke up being excited for the next day. the day after next. and so on and so forth.

i was excited for school once again. i was excited about seeing my friends again after a long summer. i was excited about finally helping StatSoc out this year. i was excited about attending class again for some weird reason. (after all, i have a good set of majors and electives this sem)

although i missed being part of the student council, i was excited about finally having time for myself. discovering what i really wanted in life. spending breaks on my own terms and savoring college life for this one last (crosses fingers) year.

for the first day of classes, i woke up without any hesitation, got ready for school, picked up my bag and went off to school :) everyone was weird-ed out with the glare in my eyes and the smile that i was sporting that day. to me, it was basically a change in outlook. i really wanted to look at the great things that God has blessed me. and that outlook went on for days and days.

basically, i was excited about finally opening the new chapter in my life. the post-depression era. my final year in college. my so-called BUM year. the year i discover my self more. the year i find happiness.

and truth to be told, i have found so much happiness early. God has blessed me with someone who makes me feel happy. someone who cares about how i feel. someone who makes me feel so loved. and yes, this person gives me that tingly feeling most of the time too. :)

i haven't felt this happy for quite some time already. it all the more gives me more reason to thank God for such blessing.

things just happen so fast. it was just last summer when i pondered about the idea of 'looking' for this someone. and now, to our surprise (especially for this someone), things just clicked. and i've been so happy ever since.

yeah, i never thought things could happen this fast. but hey, things happen for a reason. i have to take these opportunities before i regret not doing so. and at the same time, take care of ourselves in order not to make the same mistakes made in the past. making sure nobody gets hurt. of course, there's an ultimate goal and i pray to God that we get there at the best time possible.

it's great to be so positive and all but i know that you can't be on top of things for a long time. a perfect example for this would be the way i've been dragging myself to my PI100 class. haha. this year won't be a walk in the park even if i'm this happy. i know for a fact that i will hit the wall one of these days. studies first of course!

nevertheless i really feel that this someone is special. i hope she knows it.

it really is sweeter the second time around. :)